Nur Syazwani binti Abdul Jalil.

-19-

-Trying to strive to be the best that I can be-

-future vet? muahaha insyaallah-


More than words.



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Sunday, August 8, 2010
"The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of.”
- Capote

Sakit...
Friday, August 6, 2010
...badan. Akibat dipaksa pergi jogging dengan adik yang naik basikal. Diikuti dengan rancangan tidak menaiki teksi. Public transport sure does involve a lot of walking :/


Thanks dear Jan for following me on my mission to beli ketupat. Padahal when I thought about it, kedai tu ada je kat KLCC :/

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Let's lighten it up
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Terigt ni


Something
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Salam,

I feel like sharing something. Recently, I felt like a lock turned in my heart and a door opened. Something became so clear. Since then, I was wondering if I should share this with anyone that's interested. But I've been embarassed because I feel like who am I to be talking about these things when I myself terlalu banyak kekurangan.

But then I thought, itu malu yang tak bertempat. Apa salah I share this thing and anyone reading can form their own opinions about it. If I'm wrong anywhere, hopefully they can correct me.

Okay, so what am I talking about? I guess it's something that anyone can relate with, especially at this age. Kalau search top articles kat iluvislam.com memang pasal ni lah. Dah boleh teka right, pasal couple.

Hisyh, apa budak ni cakap pasal ni. Aku tengok dia pun macam apa je. Maybe that's what some might be thinking right now. And I realize I made a lot of mistakes in the past tapi insya Allah, from now on I hope to make a sincere change within myself.

Let me share my experience with this word, 'couple.'

Dari form 1 sampai form 5, I went to a girls school. Because of this, my interactions with those from the opposite sex was extremely limited. I never looked for or was looked for. My friends that had 'boyfriends' I questioned with confusion and curiosity. What was this couple stuff all about? Lagipun my head wasn't turned pun. Memang ada lah satu dua crushes bodoh2 but that was about it.

Bila masuk college, I guess you can say I had a slight culture shock bila study in a co-ed environment. During sem 1, I didn't even make friends with boys. Kerk, Jega, etc. were all my classmates and they would say I only became good friends with them during the 2nd sem.

Through a series of unfortunate events, somehow my eyes became open to this couple stuff and tiba2 lahir satu keinginan and curiosity in me. Bahaya memang bahaya.

Tapi alhamdulillah. Ada banyak yang berlaku yang sedarkan saya dan meneguhkan semula pendirian saya untuk tidak bermain perasaan dan mengejar cinta manusia. In my humble opinion, based on my limited experience and from what I've seen of others, the truth of this statement tak boleh dinafikan:

"Jangan cari cinta manusia,
ia penuh dengan penipuan,
kekecewaan,
dan tak kekal..

Tapi carilah cinta Allah..
tiada penipuan,
tidakkan pernah mengecewakan
itulah cinta abadi..
Cinta yang diredahai.."
 
What with all my failings, what right do I have to look for a love other than Allah's when even that I have been negligent?
 
What right do I have to be distracted from my responsibilities towards God, my parents, my family, my friends and my sponsor?
 
Saya berdoa agar sentiasa dijauhkan dari maksiat and I sincerely hope for my sins and mistakes to be forgiven. Tuhan sahaja yang tahu my regrets.
 
Saya mintak maaf untuk apa-apa kesalahan saya. I hope this post doesn't offend anyone because it is totally 100% only about what has been running through my mind and my regrets for all my mistakes and blindness.
Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal berperang itu adalah sesuatu yang kamu benci. Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui. (Surah. Al Baqarah:216)
Dan janganlah kamu mendekati zina; sesungguhnya zina itu adalah suatu perbuatan yang keji. Dan suatu jalan yang buruk" (Al-Isra' 17:32)
Salam.

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tarrapappa
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Status update
  1. Sebab menulis blog: suka baca balik pastu delete
  2. State of mind: tendency to melancholy, pensiveness but clear
  3. State of stomach: breakfast bihun, lunch onion rings, dinner cereal
  4. Books I've read in the past 5 days: The Stranger (Camus), Paddington Here and Now, Charlie & The Chocolate Factory (Dahl), aA + bB (Hlovate)
  5. State of ears: can't stop listening to classical

Semakin nak pergi ni, semakin pikir balik.
  1. Tak nak. Serious tak nak.
  2. I wish I could talk with you guys everyday like last time.
  3. I refuse to fail.
Serious seyhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Why so serious Syaz? And why are you talking to yourself? Gila ke? ahaks

OKay arr tiba-tiba terasa nak pergi tengok march of the penguins.

Salam.

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Dan Sebenarnya
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Saya penat dan tak larat

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Dustbin
Friday, July 30, 2010
Hey Shid,
I know when it comes to keeping in touch I can be disapointing tapi jangan lah fikir aku dah kena alzheimers and jadi pelupa pulak eyh =p

Lagi pun it's kinda impossible untuk lupa orang yang
  • Jadi partner pertandingan potong buah
  • Kita menari with sampai sakit kepala sebab gelak gila2 sangat
  • Tuang sodium hydroxide atas orang
  • Tarik kerusi and buat aku nangis
  • Sama2 tipu Puan Noraini kononnya nak buat duty padahal just nak rehat awal
  • Beritahu homework almost every week sebab aku suka sangat ponteng
  • Nak jadi angkasawan
  • Suka buat phrase baru like cis-dale and seram-ik world
  • Tukang beri nasihat
And banyak lagi lah. So chill je lah aku takkan lupa wlpn aku dah jauh =D

and same goes to everyone else too =)

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Goodbye.
Amal Izzaty Edmond Mok Farhanah Shaiful Bahari Fatin Amalina Munirah Suhaili Nadia Huda Nadiah Jalil Najwa Ursilan Nurashidah Musa Nurul Izzah Muhaimy Nurul Jannah Najman Zakkeeyyah Zainodin